Summer's End

I feel I haven't had the time to really reflect on the days that have passed, I'm always looking ahead.

Since I'm out of my element when I go camping, a couple of days feels like a lot longer. This year's trip felt different than last year's. Honestly, I think I enjoyed last year more. Maybe because I attended earlier, people were more excited and energetic. People this year had been there for most of the week and by the time I joined, they were kind of lethargic. Still, I did my own thing, got some writing done on top of the whole being in nature thing.

I've been infected with a virus these last few days, coughing up a lung and all. Forced myself to be social for two days but today I finally gave in the staying in and worked.

As per usual, I didn't get as far as I would've liked. I need another 100 days likes this one. But I won't get 'em. It's nothing but work from here until Christmas, so I'll have to make due.

I'm itching to go, it's time to shadowrun in Hong Kong...

I dreamt I was going through town in a snowstorm... on a hoverboard.

Some old man yelled at me after we bumped into each other. His bicycle went flying but he stayed standing.

dream...

The day's events have muddled my memory a bit but I've been hoping to start writing down some of my dreams since they've been so unpleasant lately.

I remember the feeling of "heading back" with a group in my dream last night. As though I was with some friends or new acquaintances and we were all walking together back to someone's home. That main someone, I think, was an older woman. When we arrived there, something dawned on me. These people are child molesters. The older woman is talking over a deal with that man to let him have some "time" with the young girl inside the house.

I remember feeling digusted and powerless. I remember saying something to the effect of, "I can't be here while this is happening," - as though there was absolutely nothing I could do to stop them - and then walking away.

I remember "later" came around and the same young girl walked over to me and hugged me. She somehow knew I was the only one on her side.

I woke up feeling shaken. I don't think I've ever had a dream on such a disturbing topic before. Usually the nightmares are the usual: dreams of betrayal, death of a loved one, zombies. I have been reading some pretty disturbing articles though - stuff about the deep web and how it's a haven for child molesters. Or another one about how sex slavery is alive and well in modern America.

Plus I've been playing copious amounts of Shadowrun games (Dragonfall and now Hong Kong) and the dark settings might be creeping into my subconscious.

As for just thinking of dreams, well, they were a topic recently on Test Tube Plus - maybe I will make an effort to log them.