Wendy says:
THANK YOU FOR THE CHOCOLATES OMG you are the spirit of christmas personified!1!
<3. Now sleep.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
A control freak.
I've got neatly separated social groups. It's how I like things: compartmentalized. It's pretty rare that I've let things get mixed, because you never know what will happen. I was considering inviting Jess to the Solstice tradition event next Saturday, but then I got this nagging feeling of, 'This may yield unpredictable results' and decided to just close the invite window.
When predictability influences your choices, doesn't that make you a control freak? The term 'Risk Averse' comes to mind, but it's not quite right. There are no Risk Premiums for these kinds of things.
When predictability influences your choices, doesn't that make you a control freak? The term 'Risk Averse' comes to mind, but it's not quite right. There are no Risk Premiums for these kinds of things.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Friends.
Lt. Mia says:
Ugh, Jess, should I just quit being in a band already? I feel like I've got too many things and not enough time
Jess says:
no!
its like 30% of your sex apeal
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[Anne, who had a car crash, asking me if I can hang out with her during the holidays]
Anne says:
grrrrrrrrr
Anne says:
I almost died!
Anne says:
I deserve some Mia attention
Ugh, Jess, should I just quit being in a band already? I feel like I've got too many things and not enough time
Jess says:
no!
its like 30% of your sex apeal
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[Anne, who had a car crash, asking me if I can hang out with her during the holidays]
Anne says:
grrrrrrrrr
Anne says:
I almost died!
Anne says:
I deserve some Mia attention
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Accident / a Heart not Captured
It's hard not to take it personally when this sort of shit happens.
You're thinking to yourself, "Finally, things are going my way," and that's when it hits. A major roadblock. Or in this case, a major car crash. Broken ribs, punctured lung, but at least he'll be okay, eventually. That is what's important. But it doesn't change the fact that a singer can't sing for a long time after a punctured lung, and the entire reason I left my baby, my project behind, was so that I could join a band that was complete, that was ready to start playing live and recording. What I'll be getting instead now is rent I can't afford and an incomplete lineup (again). I can't help it, really, after everything that's happened in the last 3 years, but to feel like this is personal. The universe conspires against me.
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So many times I've wanted to apologize to people and say, "I'm terribly sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm very sorry that I'm not in love with you."
I'm feeling guilty these days in particular for getting spoiled. I've made my feelings and intentions clear, I can only hope there's no clinging to false hope going on.
I have to be careful of the lines I cross.
You're thinking to yourself, "Finally, things are going my way," and that's when it hits. A major roadblock. Or in this case, a major car crash. Broken ribs, punctured lung, but at least he'll be okay, eventually. That is what's important. But it doesn't change the fact that a singer can't sing for a long time after a punctured lung, and the entire reason I left my baby, my project behind, was so that I could join a band that was complete, that was ready to start playing live and recording. What I'll be getting instead now is rent I can't afford and an incomplete lineup (again). I can't help it, really, after everything that's happened in the last 3 years, but to feel like this is personal. The universe conspires against me.
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So many times I've wanted to apologize to people and say, "I'm terribly sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm very sorry that I'm not in love with you."
I'm feeling guilty these days in particular for getting spoiled. I've made my feelings and intentions clear, I can only hope there's no clinging to false hope going on.
I have to be careful of the lines I cross.
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