Pale September

I do a whole lot of thinking but not a whole lot of doing. I'm lazy and undisciplined and I sabotage myself constantly. I like to pretend I know better than everyone else but I fall into the same traps as everyone else. I refuse to sacrifice, to truly sacrifice.

I berate myself a lot after lacks of discipline. I don't know if it's good or bad, but it's how I function. If I told most people about this, they'd call me crazy. They'd say I'm too hard on myself. They're idiots.

There's this illusion of safety people have where 1. they will never lose what they have and 2. things will 'work themselves out' in the end.

It's generally true that if you keep doing what you're doing you'll keep getting what you're getting. If that works for you, then great.

I'm in need of something different.

I've risen from my physical frame, you can't touch me.

Sometimes, much too often these days, I feel my emotions overwhelming.

My curse is that I care too much.

From int to Binary to float

Quiet afternoon at work (which is quite rare), so I wrote a little java program that converts from integer to binary to float.

public class PracticeMain {

public static void main(String[] args) {

int number = 26;
int remainder;
String output = "";

while(number > 1)
{
remainder = number%2;
output = (Integer.toString(remainder)) + output;
number = number/2;
}

output = (Integer.toString(number)) + output;
System.out.print(output);

StringBuffer outputString = new StringBuffer(output);
outputString.reverse();
output = outputString.toString();

double floatnum = 0;

for(int i= output.length(); i > 0 ; i--)
{
if(output.charAt(i-1) == '1')
{
floatnum = floatnum + Math.pow(2, (i-1));
}
}

System.out.println();
System.out.println(floatnum);

}

}

Parts and Structure

"Knowing only the composition (the parts that compose a system) and the structure (the way those parts are connected), we can learn a lot about a complex system." -Prof. Ruths, TEDxMcGill

Blue Sky, Black Death

"If you think about it, it's not easy to keep from just wandering out of life. It's like someone's always leaving the door open to the next world. If you aren't paying attention you can just walk through it and then you die."

Blah blee blah

Sabotage often comes from rethinking your decisions. You're not fully committed in those instances where you open yourself up to negotiation.

Make a decision and stick with it, then you don't have to deal with the bullshit of being torn between doing one thing or the other.

From the mouths of Dis.

If you (barely) knew Di like I do (she's a tough chick, operates a sniper rifle), you'd be touched, too. (And I'll admit, taken by surprise!)


Mia:
I have an eidetic memory.
..
No I don't. But hey I'd just watched that episode.

Diana:
It would have been unfair to the rest of us if you'd had an eidetic memory. A single person should not have musical talent, beauty, good taste in fiction AND an eidetic memory!